“Find out who you are and do it on purpose.”

It’s ok if you don’t know who you are. Or maybe you do. Maybe that is why Enneagram is having a moment right now. We desperately want to know who we are while we also love to talk about ourselves. I always thought if I just knew who I was then I could go and be something great. If I just knew who I was then people would like me. If I knew who I was then I would be successful. It seemed like something I needed to accomplish. As if it were part of a checklist. But at some point along the way I stopped caring. I stopped caring if I succeeded or not, I just wanted to try. For me, to not try was even more of a failure. And in the world of social media, a lot of you have seen me fall flat on my face. Yes, its very embarassing and I want to crawl in a hole and hide. But I don’t regret any of it. In some ways all of those failures, all of those new adventures, all of those starts that never finished, they seem to be weaving their way back into my life. They seem to actually be serving a purpose. One supporting the other. I don’t want to fail, but I don’t mind if I do because I learn so much. I learn more than if I just sat on the sidelines and watched someone else try. I am putting forth the effort because we are called to. And I am trying to do it on purpose. I am trying because there is one constant that holds it all together. I do know that I am a loved daughter of God. He’s got me when I fail. He’s got me when I succeed. He is who I am. He is my purpose. And in the midst of my failures, my successes, my sins, and my gifts I am being shaped into who I am supposed to be.